Mom it has been almost nine years since you left and went to heaven. There has not been a day that I do not miss your warm embrace, laughter, and beautiful smile. I wish I could say that as these nine years have passed that I have learned to move on, but that would be a lie. The pain of your loss still haunts me everyday, the loss of a mother is a cut in the heart that runs deep. However, I have learned to keep my eyes dry in front of others and a smile on my face. I have learned to live my life through your memories and in hope that you can look down from heaven and see how great of a mother you was and the accomplishments you made. I use to beg God to let me be with you but I eventually realized that you cannot leave heaven and I do not want to visit any time soon. I pray that you are being treated like the angel that you are and that you are a guardian angel to all of your grandchildren even the ones you ever got to meet. I love you mom always and forever!

I love you mom!

Mom it has been thirteen years since I wrote part 2 to you, and now I sit here to write part 3. You are no longer here on earth with me, You were taken in a car crash that should of never happened. But in my heart I know that you asked God to let you go to heaven, to save Jessica and Landon. My heart aches everyday in away that no one else can imagine. I always thought that we would have tomorrow together, but tomorrow for you will never come. and I feel all alone without you! You were my best friend, and the greatest mother. I will hold on to our memories together forever! I don't know what I will do without you, but I know that I must go on. And one day I will see you again with open arms. It is hard to say "Good Bye" so I will only tell you that i will see you later. And that until that time comes, I will cherish our memories, I will Love you forever, I will miss you dearly, I will never forget you, And I will always hold you in my heart. LOVE ALWAYS AND FOREVER!